we will never know

It's quiet here, but my head is incredibly loud
I keep replaying the moment everything broke
Trying to figure out where the heavy weather rolled in
And how we both ended up choking on the smoke
You were changing, and I just couldn't pull you back.

I know I told you that I’d had enough
I know I was the one who called your bluff
But honestly, this distance is driving me insane.

If I had just stayed put and weathered the storm
Would you have finally found your way back to me?
If I hadn't walked out just to keep myself warm
Would we be the people we promised we'd be?
I had to draw a boundary, I know that much is true
But all I do is wonder what I could have fixed in you.
I guess I'll never know.

Life is just a series of corners we turn
Some lead you home, some just leave you lost
I thought walking away was the lesson I had to learn
But I don't think I ever calculated the cost
If I stood on your porch right now and asked for a redo
Would you take my hand, or would I just look like a fool?

Are you staring at the ceiling in the dark?
Do you wish that we could take it to the start?
'Cause honestly, this distance is driving me insane.

If I had just stayed put and weathered the storm
Would you have finally found your way back to me?
If I hadn't walked out just to keep myself warm
Would we be the people we promised we'd be?
I had to draw a boundary, I know that much is true
But all I do is wonder what I could have fixed in you.
I guess I'll never know.

They say time only moves in one direction
And leaving was the only choice I had left to make
But nobody tells you that drawing the line
Is the fastest way to make your own heart break.
I still love you. I probably always will.

So what if I had never let you go?
Are you anywhere near the man I used to know?
What if I hadn't been the one to walk away?

'Cause I still love you more than I know how to say.
If I had just stayed...
If you had just tried...
If we could just rewind the tape...
But I guess we'll never know.
We'll never know.